it's my blog and i just need to get this out.
so here goes...
Goal #1: Deliver a healthy baby Walker into the world
Goal #2: Experience a natural childbirth
there's no trophy, there's no certificate, no pat on the back, and no cash prize. i realize that - completley
i am of the mindset that the miracle has already happened. there's a little human that grew from 2 cells that's now moving, swallowing, having the hiccups, kicking, smiling and sleeping - upside down and under water in my tummy. i've got nothing to prove.
HELLO..what could top the miracle that God has created in this new life?
certainly no 24 hour labor exerience could be more important than this?
certainly the method to which Walker is delivered couldn't trumph the miracle of creation?
certainly 9 months of growth and development wouldn't be overshadowed by 2 days in the hospital?
I don't know why - but something deep inside me wants to experience a natural childbirth. Can i do it? Who knows, but why would you discourage someone about something that they desire - especially when it has not direct affect on you? Are marathon's hard? triathalons? intervews? marriage? heartache? work? life? yeah - those are hard too - but we still do them, give them a try - have a chance at completing them.
it would be nice to hear more often than not some encouragement about childbirth, maybe a "i'll be praying for you guys on that day" instead of a "i'll give you one hour of hard labor and that's all you can do" or a "yeah - good luck with that you'll be beggin' for an epidural"
it's like if you said, 'i have a big interview today - i'm so nervous but i feel prepared and i really think i can get this job" and i replied, "yeah right - you're going to clam-up, make a fool of yourself - and end-up crawling out the door - you'll never land that job"
so all that to say - if you think about us - over the next week or so - will you pray that while we are laboring and delivering by choice in a very tecnhologically advanced hospital - with every type of drug, intervention, or surgery capability that could be necessary at our disposal, that no matter the delivery method that we take that we could deliver a healthy baby boy? That's not too much to ask right?
and also - THANKS - for all the encouragement, kind words, advice, prayers and support over the past 9 months - it DOES stand out above the negative and it does make a difference. We are more excited than ever to meet Walker and begin this new season in our lives!